Thursday, July 30, 2009
weather: warm
mood: lost
2moro will be DPG night outing session and is also pol-ite final game, vs TP. had been wondering which one should i really go, though mr foo had asked me to go for my match instead of the outing..
anyway, i'm in a daze most of the time in the morning. even Nazmi call me i oso dun noe. frec walk beside me, neither did i realized that.
Nazmi: Gina, so u confirm not going for the outing huh?
me: i don't noe leh...
Nazmi: I learnt something from Victor yesterday. "Set your priority RIGHT". you noe you should..
thanks to my dear friends Nazmi, i'm in a much worst situation right..
anyway, most likely i will be goin match ba. "dun give up wat u really wan". a friend of my told me this. it kinda helps in a decision.
Human tends to lost themselves when chasing after their dream.
Dream and reallity are actually a line different.
It hurts when u want everything & nothing at the same time.
Nothing on earth comes easy.
I know that very well.
I didn't get it this time maybe because i'm not hard working enough?
I wanna fight for myself.
Before i worry about tomorrow with my head down.
I wanna be what i want for today.
I'm not going let all these gone to waste.
I will come back!
but..
Quiting will still be one of my solution.
I'll still leave if i don't see my needs.
Thats the least i can do..
to keep my last piece of dream in mind.
Gina
mood: lost
2moro will be DPG night outing session and is also pol-ite final game, vs TP. had been wondering which one should i really go, though mr foo had asked me to go for my match instead of the outing..
anyway, i'm in a daze most of the time in the morning. even Nazmi call me i oso dun noe. frec walk beside me, neither did i realized that.
Nazmi: Gina, so u confirm not going for the outing huh?
me: i don't noe leh...
Nazmi: I learnt something from Victor yesterday. "Set your priority RIGHT". you noe you should..
thanks to my dear friends Nazmi, i'm in a much worst situation right..
anyway, most likely i will be goin match ba. "dun give up wat u really wan". a friend of my told me this. it kinda helps in a decision.
Human tends to lost themselves when chasing after their dream.
Dream and reallity are actually a line different.
It hurts when u want everything & nothing at the same time.
Nothing on earth comes easy.
I know that very well.
I didn't get it this time maybe because i'm not hard working enough?
I wanna fight for myself.
Before i worry about tomorrow with my head down.
I wanna be what i want for today.
I'm not going let all these gone to waste.
I will come back!
but..
Quiting will still be one of my solution.
I'll still leave if i don't see my needs.
Thats the least i can do..
to keep my last piece of dream in mind.
Gina
what we could have been, 7:50 PM.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
weather: sunny
mood: down
recently i'm not myself. studies are in a mess right now, so do my CCA.
suddenly feel like ending my vball career. maybe is simply time for me to say goodbye? currently i'm really thinking of quiting. i'm tired le. i can no longer feel anything when standing in e court. enough of standing in somebody else shadow. i'm not superman. wat if i fail? did u ever think of that..?
maybe after U19, den i'll say goodbye to vball.
oh man.. i felt so useless. a useless player indeed..
there's one place in our body
located on the top left hand corner
it is a special place
it would hurt even when it wasn't physically injured
i noe when the day come to say goodbye
that special place will be in great pain
mum.. why i'm not injured. but that special place of my feel hurt..?
why when i choose to say goodbye, tears will roll down my cheek even if i dun wan it to..?
why is it so hard to say goodbye..?
maybe a car accident would help. memory will be wash, so are the pains..
Gina
mood: down
recently i'm not myself. studies are in a mess right now, so do my CCA.
suddenly feel like ending my vball career. maybe is simply time for me to say goodbye? currently i'm really thinking of quiting. i'm tired le. i can no longer feel anything when standing in e court. enough of standing in somebody else shadow. i'm not superman. wat if i fail? did u ever think of that..?
maybe after U19, den i'll say goodbye to vball.
oh man.. i felt so useless. a useless player indeed..
there's one place in our body
located on the top left hand corner
it is a special place
it would hurt even when it wasn't physically injured
i noe when the day come to say goodbye
that special place will be in great pain
mum.. why i'm not injured. but that special place of my feel hurt..?
why when i choose to say goodbye, tears will roll down my cheek even if i dun wan it to..?
why is it so hard to say goodbye..?
maybe a car accident would help. memory will be wash, so are the pains..
Gina
what we could have been, 11:29 PM.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
weather: sunny
mood: down
Alright~ this is for u CZ!! i noe u will view my blog. WUAHAHAHAHA~~~
u can copy to ur com. no one will noe. i will keep a secret for ya! so no worry!!
woke up in e morning den realised that i had mistaken my timetable. yeah... ONCE AGAIN!
during my way to sch was rather moody. met sec sch frenz, had a small chat on our way up e bridge before i leave for my lesson. reached class, awhile later, chan said STM lecturer failed me! wtf... another big bomb... that stupid sumo...
from start of sch till now, not a single day is lucky for me. this may be my worse sem. ever!
got a little break down when met mai, had a chat wif her den left for lesson.
now i'm in VT lesson. saw cz viewing my blog, so decided to have a little update.
2moro vs NYP. hope we can win. if we really did, den we will fight for 2nd or 3rd place in the POLITE game. JIA YOU NGEE ANN!!!!
sometimes maybe just give urself about 5min?
to cry ur heart out
u will be surprise
u will feel better
better than trying hard to hold everything back
Gina
mood: down
Alright~ this is for u CZ!! i noe u will view my blog. WUAHAHAHAHA~~~
u can copy to ur com. no one will noe. i will keep a secret for ya! so no worry!!
woke up in e morning den realised that i had mistaken my timetable. yeah... ONCE AGAIN!
during my way to sch was rather moody. met sec sch frenz, had a small chat on our way up e bridge before i leave for my lesson. reached class, awhile later, chan said STM lecturer failed me! wtf... another big bomb... that stupid sumo...
from start of sch till now, not a single day is lucky for me. this may be my worse sem. ever!
got a little break down when met mai, had a chat wif her den left for lesson.
now i'm in VT lesson. saw cz viewing my blog, so decided to have a little update.
2moro vs NYP. hope we can win. if we really did, den we will fight for 2nd or 3rd place in the POLITE game. JIA YOU NGEE ANN!!!!
sometimes maybe just give urself about 5min?
to cry ur heart out
u will be surprise
u will feel better
better than trying hard to hold everything back
Gina
what we could have been, 3:14 PM.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
weather: warm
mood: confuse
if you dun need me
let me noe..
i can give up to somebody else
if you dun need me
let me go..
i won't waste ur time
there are lot of things i had to bear with
i know where it hurts
i just can't give up on that dream i've choosen
i may be just a supporting role..
i might just be someone who stands in another's shadow
but i know, my dream still live on.
inside me, very clear & honest
there are tons of people on earth whom are like me. so these is wat i can say to all of you..
you've might have done this many times..
you never gave up with yourself
you've stood up everytime you fall
WE all had done this many times..
we dreamed
we believed
i hope i can hang in there
which i doubt so..
however, i had fell these many times.
wats e different in standing up once again?
i will survive...
I WILL!
Gina
mood: confuse
if you dun need me
let me noe..
i can give up to somebody else
if you dun need me
let me go..
i won't waste ur time
there are lot of things i had to bear with
i know where it hurts
i just can't give up on that dream i've choosen
i may be just a supporting role..
i might just be someone who stands in another's shadow
but i know, my dream still live on.
inside me, very clear & honest
there are tons of people on earth whom are like me. so these is wat i can say to all of you..
you've might have done this many times..
you never gave up with yourself
you've stood up everytime you fall
WE all had done this many times..
we dreamed
we believed
i hope i can hang in there
which i doubt so..
however, i had fell these many times.
wats e different in standing up once again?
i will survive...
I WILL!
Gina
what we could have been, 5:43 PM.
Friday, July 17, 2009
weather: cloudy
mood: troubled
went to sch 2day, realised lecturers had set a date for night outing photo shooting. Its on the 31st of july. which clashes wif one of my matches. den they asked if not lets put it on 24th instead, but it still clashes... i'm really lost right now...
ah lau said i kill his flash.. OMG! if he wan me pay for it, it will be like.... A FEW HUNDREDS MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
flashy flashy~~ PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun join MJ R.I.P!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
went back home, get myself ready for tution teaching. but stomach not really feeling well, no choice, cancel tution session. currently resting at home, awhile more n off i go for vball trg.
i like ONITSUKA TIGER shoes. so many design, i love them all. but they are all damn expansive. so can only look, cannot buy.. there's high cut, low cut. all damn nice. if can, maybe buying one high cut for hiphop.
this is one of them which i love.
omg omg~~
I'M SO INTO ONITSUKA TIGER!!!!!!!!
irresistible...
Gina =)
mood: troubled
went to sch 2day, realised lecturers had set a date for night outing photo shooting. Its on the 31st of july. which clashes wif one of my matches. den they asked if not lets put it on 24th instead, but it still clashes... i'm really lost right now...
ah lau said i kill his flash.. OMG! if he wan me pay for it, it will be like.... A FEW HUNDREDS MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
flashy flashy~~ PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun join MJ R.I.P!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
went back home, get myself ready for tution teaching. but stomach not really feeling well, no choice, cancel tution session. currently resting at home, awhile more n off i go for vball trg.
i like ONITSUKA TIGER shoes. so many design, i love them all. but they are all damn expansive. so can only look, cannot buy.. there's high cut, low cut. all damn nice. if can, maybe buying one high cut for hiphop.
this is one of them which i love.
omg omg~~I'M SO INTO ONITSUKA TIGER!!!!!!!!
irresistible...
Gina =)
what we could have been, 4:23 PM.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
weather: fine
mood: tired
above is my group 9 members!! excluding people extra like mingyao, weikiat & sebas!
get just back from vball camp in NP. was a GL for grp 9. Have tons of fun, but seriously i'm freaking tired. barely slp for the entire camp.
Friday we start our camp at 6.30pm. having a little bonding session. den dun really rmb wat time is was, we start to run around campus. back to childcare centre, wash up, com de-brief den slp.
Sat woke up early in e morning, ate a piece of bread and den start running around campus once again. till around 1pm den is lunch time. 2pm starts our amazing race again. amazing race = running around campus again. but tis time round everyone gets really dirty. yuck...
back to childcare centre at around 6plus, wash up and bonding games starts. have some entertaining show, cooperate wif jiawen to live up e atmosphere. den there goes our night walk preparation. go around campus, walking the route tt the freshies will be taking, wif joss stick burning. when comes to blk50, fann jan wolf ian dom & ben are station there. so we take over their equipment, so they can go pray around seriously. as we walk, no. of people following are getting lesser & lesser. cuz they have to stay at their station after we finished praying, instead of following the crowd to other places that are not related to them.
smth strange happened.. after grabbing over e newspaper from wolf, i can't use my hand to pray around liao mah. den all of a sudden, i felt my right shoulder getting heavier. like smth is pressing on it. so i nudge a little to get rid of tt feeling. SUDDENLY, e feeling comes again! i get so pissed off that i nudge it off again. look up to e window den realised tt i'm walking right at e back. the last person. a chill got down on me... before i leave, i cannot say much but just ask them to be real careful wif everything.
my station is at blk18. nth much happen. instead all of us got real tired. my station got steph toh, zuoting & zongxian. once in a while travis will come help us out. our station got more fun in e middle back. so sorry for previous grp for not having much fun in our station.
as we are e 2nd last station, so we actually wait till very late. 5plus in e morning? around there. i'm already like a piece of dead meat...
Sun nth much happened. cuz i hand over the role of GL to kengyang, due to i have to book out early. they seems okie wif it though. but when to join them in a game of dodge ball without warming myself up. in the end, injured my right thigh.... unlucky...
reached home at 6.40pm and i suppose to meet jan n fann at 6.45pm. OMG!!! have a real quick shower and off i go meeting them up to go to ying's birthday party in pasir ris. stay around, den cab home. really very tired, though i had a lot of fun.. during ying's party, mention e shoulder feeling thingy to fann they all. den realised that fann got tt feeling as well. so i'm not imagining things loh... AHHHH!!! hahaha~
monday, no sch no trg. have a real good rest! but seems to be enough.
so 2day i doze off in MTS. hope i won't for VT. thats all for 2day.
tata~~
TAN YINGYING
Happy 19th birthday baby!!
Gina =)
mood: tired
above is my group 9 members!! excluding people extra like mingyao, weikiat & sebas!
get just back from vball camp in NP. was a GL for grp 9. Have tons of fun, but seriously i'm freaking tired. barely slp for the entire camp.
Friday we start our camp at 6.30pm. having a little bonding session. den dun really rmb wat time is was, we start to run around campus. back to childcare centre, wash up, com de-brief den slp.
Sat woke up early in e morning, ate a piece of bread and den start running around campus once again. till around 1pm den is lunch time. 2pm starts our amazing race again. amazing race = running around campus again. but tis time round everyone gets really dirty. yuck...
back to childcare centre at around 6plus, wash up and bonding games starts. have some entertaining show, cooperate wif jiawen to live up e atmosphere. den there goes our night walk preparation. go around campus, walking the route tt the freshies will be taking, wif joss stick burning. when comes to blk50, fann jan wolf ian dom & ben are station there. so we take over their equipment, so they can go pray around seriously. as we walk, no. of people following are getting lesser & lesser. cuz they have to stay at their station after we finished praying, instead of following the crowd to other places that are not related to them.
smth strange happened.. after grabbing over e newspaper from wolf, i can't use my hand to pray around liao mah. den all of a sudden, i felt my right shoulder getting heavier. like smth is pressing on it. so i nudge a little to get rid of tt feeling. SUDDENLY, e feeling comes again! i get so pissed off that i nudge it off again. look up to e window den realised tt i'm walking right at e back. the last person. a chill got down on me... before i leave, i cannot say much but just ask them to be real careful wif everything.
my station is at blk18. nth much happen. instead all of us got real tired. my station got steph toh, zuoting & zongxian. once in a while travis will come help us out. our station got more fun in e middle back. so sorry for previous grp for not having much fun in our station.
as we are e 2nd last station, so we actually wait till very late. 5plus in e morning? around there. i'm already like a piece of dead meat...
Sun nth much happened. cuz i hand over the role of GL to kengyang, due to i have to book out early. they seems okie wif it though. but when to join them in a game of dodge ball without warming myself up. in the end, injured my right thigh.... unlucky...
reached home at 6.40pm and i suppose to meet jan n fann at 6.45pm. OMG!!! have a real quick shower and off i go meeting them up to go to ying's birthday party in pasir ris. stay around, den cab home. really very tired, though i had a lot of fun.. during ying's party, mention e shoulder feeling thingy to fann they all. den realised that fann got tt feeling as well. so i'm not imagining things loh... AHHHH!!! hahaha~
monday, no sch no trg. have a real good rest! but seems to be enough.
so 2day i doze off in MTS. hope i won't for VT. thats all for 2day.
tata~~
TAN YINGYING
Happy 19th birthday baby!!
Gina =)
what we could have been, 3:08 PM.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
weather: sunny? i'm in studio all day..
mood: discourage
yesterday nra was alright. nth much happens. soonheng not around, i noe none of them well either. so i'm simply there to learn only but not make friends. but so how good oso, can concentrate more isn't it?
2day no IVP training. instead, we go SP to have friendly matches with them. lost all though, but roughly noe how they play. maybe from there can find some weaknesses to score. coach asked why my face so black 2day, not happy? i dun noe how to answer them, so simply just smile back.
nth much happens 2day. skip morning lesson, late for VT. heard from chan tt i goin to receive warning letter. i didn't absent myself tt much to actually receive tt, instead, i'm always late. so consider absent. oh well~ i've got lots of problem on my shoulder already, one more of it oso no diff. just join in the fun only..
i know i'm not the one you're searching for
i know what i have is not wat you want most
i tried to be who you want me to be
i seize whatever chances that are given to me
but..
all would be killed with just one mistake
i know i'm different from others
no mistake can be make for me
only one to two chance will be given to me
seize it, hold it, tried it
i will be the very last person you would thought of
maybe?
it hurts though.
but..
good for me
there's not much time left
is good to let me get use to the feeling of losing it
so i won't feel that hurt in the end
kill my passion, kill my love
its the best way for me to really end all these
cause i'm tired of holding on..
you won't understand....
i'm afterall a defender at born...
mood: discourage
yesterday nra was alright. nth much happens. soonheng not around, i noe none of them well either. so i'm simply there to learn only but not make friends. but so how good oso, can concentrate more isn't it?
2day no IVP training. instead, we go SP to have friendly matches with them. lost all though, but roughly noe how they play. maybe from there can find some weaknesses to score. coach asked why my face so black 2day, not happy? i dun noe how to answer them, so simply just smile back.
nth much happens 2day. skip morning lesson, late for VT. heard from chan tt i goin to receive warning letter. i didn't absent myself tt much to actually receive tt, instead, i'm always late. so consider absent. oh well~ i've got lots of problem on my shoulder already, one more of it oso no diff. just join in the fun only..
i know i'm not the one you're searching for
i know what i have is not wat you want most
i tried to be who you want me to be
i seize whatever chances that are given to me
but..
all would be killed with just one mistake
i know i'm different from others
no mistake can be make for me
only one to two chance will be given to me
seize it, hold it, tried it
i will be the very last person you would thought of
maybe?
it hurts though.
but..
good for me
there's not much time left
is good to let me get use to the feeling of losing it
so i won't feel that hurt in the end
kill my passion, kill my love
its the best way for me to really end all these
cause i'm tired of holding on..
you won't understand....
i'm afterall a defender at born...
what we could have been, 10:57 PM.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
weather: windy
mood: no comment
IVP trg on friday. head down to sentosa resort for junhao's birthday party. slpt for an hr plus den head back down to NP for yijie's I&E project, volleyball match.
my team consists of Janice, Zixuan, Jiawen, Zuoting, Zongxian, Xueyi and me. called "White", simply just because we all wear white jersey. nth special abt it. hahaha~ played under the blazing sun for freaking 8 HOURS!!!!! of course we are all burnt. we make our way all e way up to final. fought wif Shuquan's alumni called "Surfer". tough battle, nice game. really had a lot of fun. however, kept making mistakes. SORRY PEOPLE! 3rd match, 30-29. we lost by 1point. though we lost e game, but i'm very happy to learn so many stuffs from every single one of them.
school starts till now, series of suayness just kept following me. shall share with u guys next time. i'm current both physically and mentally tired le. i can't resist anything anymore. laugh by all means now. but soon i will be back and stuff those laughter of urs right back into ur god damn mouth!
reason very simple. cuz GINA POH NEVER SAY DIE!!
took many pic tt day. show all upload it up on facebook. here are some of them..
yup~ tts how my hand look like after i remove my tape. look freaking weird. but cool in some sense huh? hahaha~
tts all. tata~~
Gina :|
mood: no comment
IVP trg on friday. head down to sentosa resort for junhao's birthday party. slpt for an hr plus den head back down to NP for yijie's I&E project, volleyball match.
my team consists of Janice, Zixuan, Jiawen, Zuoting, Zongxian, Xueyi and me. called "White", simply just because we all wear white jersey. nth special abt it. hahaha~ played under the blazing sun for freaking 8 HOURS!!!!! of course we are all burnt. we make our way all e way up to final. fought wif Shuquan's alumni called "Surfer". tough battle, nice game. really had a lot of fun. however, kept making mistakes. SORRY PEOPLE! 3rd match, 30-29. we lost by 1point. though we lost e game, but i'm very happy to learn so many stuffs from every single one of them.
school starts till now, series of suayness just kept following me. shall share with u guys next time. i'm current both physically and mentally tired le. i can't resist anything anymore. laugh by all means now. but soon i will be back and stuff those laughter of urs right back into ur god damn mouth!
reason very simple. cuz GINA POH NEVER SAY DIE!!
took many pic tt day. show all upload it up on facebook. here are some of them..
yup~ tts how my hand look like after i remove my tape. look freaking weird. but cool in some sense huh? hahaha~tts all. tata~~
Gina :|
what we could have been, 12:43 PM.
