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Sunday, August 21, 2011

weather: Fine
mood: Bored





My Battle Teammates
So long since i last blogged. Muahaha~ Been rather relax at work for e past few mths. Not much shows or big events tt really worn me out. I've been rotting around for days tt i'm OFF. Is either no one is free for a date wif me or simply i'm lazy to go out. I think slowly i'll have some typical adult life where it is dull & boring. NOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~ Anyway, recently i went for paintball games wif my company again. But this time round is at Jurong field. Is very different from Yishun bottle tree red dynasty one. I'm referring to the field lah. This one is more tiring but extremely more fun!! wuahaha~ And most importantly, NO BRUISES!!!

2nd bro just got married. While bigbro will be about end of tis year. Me? No boyfriend yet. hahaha. Bro selling car off end of tis mth. No more car to drive around loh~ Life would be even more boring!! Though bigbro recommend me to buy a car, but like tt i would not be able to save up for my University fee le wor.. :((
So~ i had decided to pick up motorcycle license!! Weeeeeeeee~~~ Den if can, i shall own a bike instead. Just for transport purpose. It cheaper & more convinence leh. Of course more dangerous lah. kekeke~

Anyway, been thinking about wat i wanna study in e future. Wanted to take Psychology, which is wat i always wanted to touch on. But guess wat~ They require good grades at MATH!!! And if u dun, nvm~~ Just need to take their entrance exam only. Sounds like a easy aye. Topics are Function and Graphs, Calculus & Probability!!!! Wat the fuck?!?!?!? I'm super duper poor at math, now still give me so chim one to test on. I seriously can kiss tt course goodbye... -.-
Hence, i'm still looking around to see wat other courses interest me. Most likely will pick up something related to science? I dunnoe either.

Btw, just got back from HK. Went there wif Janice Zuoting Fann Felice & Jiawen. Experience? It was really AWESOME~~~~~ hahaha. But due to e weather, disneyland oceanpark and da yu shan trip are all canceled. So the trip ended up become shopping and makan only. But is seriously good enough already!! Total i spent about SGD 1500? About there, probably less than that. Inclusive of flights, hotel stay, makan, travel & shopping :D

My HK Khakis

There's more places i wanna go!!! Like Taiwan, Japan, Korea.. etc. Like tt how to own a car?!?! hahaha. Monneh~ Everything everywhere also need MONNEH~~~ Shall work really hard to save up. No only for my own luxury but oso for future studies.

There's still ton of stuffs happened but is way too many to mention. Just to highlight on some. Attended Chenchian's wedding & be her sister thru out. Was my 1st experience and is fun too. But kinda tiring oso.

Hereby wish her all the best for her marriage & stay happy forever!!

Another update, I FINALY GET TO MEETUP LIM CHENGZHIA & some of e boys. Though i still failed to meet aloy up. Wonder how is he doin. Perhaps get smaller in size? hahaha. We had a meetup supper at upp thomson for some catchup. Can't help but keep eyeing on his head. Army heads are often nice to touch isn't it? HAHAHA!!
The men that protect us. FIGHTING!!! :D

Alright~ Shall stop here. Update more next time!! Tata~~~



U're not real
U're not real
I just have to seal the door up
So u cannot enter
Though u already had...










Gina :D

what we could have been, 2:29 PM.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011

weather: dunnoe
mood: sleepy






Been almost a month since i joined ETG. Hmmmm~ Being an intern & full-timer, are indeed very different. Which is 1 of e factors tt i concern before i join them. Is not tt i'm ill treated or smth. Is just e responsibiliies.. Actually, sometimes i dun think i'm up to it. Yet, i wanna try. Stubborn u may say.

Been awhile since i last open up to someone. Went drinkin wif Shifu Han. I must be mad or nerve system breakdown. Wonder wat trigger tt emotion, BLAH!! Things tt i buried deep down just reveal one by one. Dangerous person indeed. Gonna stay on cautious from now on. NO MORE REVEALING!!!

7 crews had not meetup for quite some times.. Though some managed to turn up once in a while, but still smth is missing. Perhaps just not complete.. Wonder wat they're busy wif.. Work? Other entertainments? Boyfriends? Social lives?
Actually, i dun have e rights to say anything either.. With my working schedule tis irregular, I barely meetup anyone. Even if i can, are last min or poly friends. I really miss those secondary sch life. Where there are only study, friends & volleyball. Bland yet simple & sweet.

Official graduation finally over. Time flies indeed~ The boys r goin into NS. Doubt we're possible to meetup. Maybe 10yrs down e road, most of them might have had a family!! hahaha. Or even no longer in Singapore. For now, i shall concentrate on doing my job right!!

A sentence been running through my mind over & over again. "Working hard & doing it right, are two different things." I classify myself as working hard, not smart. Maybe this is why i'm so depress over my performance. Seriously, i dun wanna be a burden.. I dun wanna make all my Shifu/s disappointed.. i dun wan..

Think i'm really very emo nowadays. Shall stop here. Coming up with more update soon yo!!! I think i will really miss my classmates BIG TIME!!! hahaha. Back to standby~~










Gina :]

what we could have been, 11:30 AM.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011

weather: humid/ raining
mood: urban depress







Went shopping wif Jan on thur afternoon. Evening saw aunt's msg: "ahgong condition very bad. If u able to come, try to. Just in case.." I noe smth not right. Cab down wif Jan from town at peak hr somemore. Freaking stuck in jam at tis crucial period. Managed to reach & squeeze thru e crowd. Finally grab ahgong's hand & say my name. He open up his weary eyes, look at me awhile & close back up. Dun really rmb whether did he slightly nod his head not. Nurse say he might not be able to make it thru tt night. But old people prefer to die at home. So we encourage him to stay strong.

Transfer him to special room as relatives many wanna stay. A couple of time almost kenna heart attack when we heard e machine tt measure heartbeats enter into critical mode. Like drama series, as e sound go by, ur heart drop too. Eventually they realise tt e machine not working well, so decided to remove.

As the night falls, everyone are tired. Mum & aunts say go home wash up den come back again. A part of me dun wanna leave e place, but still decided to go home 1st. On our way back to hospital, aunt call saying ahgong not gonna make it soon. Panick like shit, bigbro chiong like F1 racer. Mum crying big time at e back. All i wish is ahgong to wait for me to let me see him off. But.. I didn't make it.. Mum went up 1st while bro & i park e car. By e time we go up, i see ppl crying.. and i noe.. he's gone..

These few days at e wake, i try my very best not to cry. At most just drop a couple of tears. Funeral tt day, was e one tt i couldn't take it anymore & cry big time. My heart is aching, my tears are falling.. Every single scene from coffin to burning process, all r tatoo into my brain. How i wish ahgong can suddenly wake up & scold "I'M NOT DEAD YET!!" How i wish...

Gonna suffer for awhile.. I hope i get it over soon.. Next week start work. I'm ready anot? i dunnoe... I'm very lost now. Nothing seems to interest me anymore...

Though us very depressing. But thanks to bro~ sometime things r lighten up pretty much abit. One of it is during my rush over, bigbro called. Along e way i ask him abt ahgong's condition..
me: aye~ how's ahgong's condition?? Stable not???
bro: hmmm~ i think is pretty stable lah. Cos he's lying there not moving leh.
me: WTH?! haha. I mean doc got said his condition very risky??
bro: I didn't go bank in so i dunnoe leh~~
me: wat e fuck... -.-










Gina

what we could have been, 4:59 PM.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011

weather: Windy
mood: Bored







Woke up early in the morning for crew call at 7:15am in MBS. Yet the event for our room only starts at 12noon!!! Den may i noe why the hell am i need to report soooooooo early?! argshhhhhh...

Recently having tis particular event company work as freelance. Seriously the people are nice, even the bigboss. EXCEPT!!!!! One uncle. -.- And their setup is freaking freaking super duper slow one sio~ Good pay though. But too draggy alrdy. Let me share smth abt tis uncle...

During setup, he wouldn't tell us all the stuffs tt are needed to be set. Instead, he will ask u to do some 1st. After complete den he will proceed in telling us wat to do. Alright, all this are fine. Standby tt day, each of us got one breakout room. Peilin & i eventually got the bigger ones. He came over to my room in the 1st session & said he will be doing the audio part, while i concentrate on my video. Oh wells~ I'm fine with it though. When he saw my EQ are mainly cuts, he say cannot like tt. Must have one cut & one gain, in order to balance (Tts wat he mention). But the lapel are very sensitive, gaining will have high risks in feedbacks or ringing. I told him, but he went on saying must believe in uncle!! Okie loh.. The next thing i knew is there's a loud feedback and everyone turnover & look at me -.-
Nvm~ when we were at console, i took out my phone for texting. He gave me a hard nudge on the thigh & ask me keep my phone. I thought was some sort of rules. So i kept. Eventually awhile later, there's one soft feedback. After killing it, he said softly to me "See! If you don't keep your phone, people thought is you that cause the feedback!!" Come on~ Wat kinda reason is tt man.. The best part is, he told me not to use yet HE HIMSELF IS USING IT!!! Bloody hell..
For the whole session, he kept on pushing the blame to me and i oso start to give off some attitude to let him noe dun be too much. Seriously, he's trying my limits.. During lunch break, i head to main ballroom to collect my food. He was chatting wif bigboss. Den suddenly turnover & point at me saying "Neh~ this girl lah. This girl!!" What the hell... Push the blame again. Den bigboss came over & nicely tell me tt if i encounter any problem can call & approach him directly. Is nice to hear tt, but not after being complain by tt uncle. Spoilt my reputation only!! Lucky 2nd session he didn't came over to my place, he went to Peilin's room instead. MUAHAHAHA!!! And there he goes again to irritate Peilin.
Later in the night, where everything finished, was abt 11:50pm. We were allowed to go home, Peilin they all taking cab together. But i stay at woodlands, so a colleague offer to send me back. When we abt to leave, uncle said wait for him. And ask me whether would i like to take BUS or car. Hello~ by the time i walk to e station, no train or bus liao leh. Don't let me take cab, of course gonna wait for car lah. So i eventually work till 2plus in the morning den head back home. Crew call originally was 7am, but i head off the latest so was pushed to 9am. Though bigboss say wat time i wanna come oso can, but uncle set the time.

That very night, i didn't head home to slp immediately wor. Reached home and drove down to ying's hse to collect my wallet from mei. They playing MJ and wanted me to wait for them to finish. But was too tired tt, once i sit on sofa, KO!! Is a torture when u're super sleepy, yet gonna concentrate on driving.

Event day 2 wasn't tt bad, cause he didn't come to my room to kajiao me at all. And this make my mood for the rest of the day pretty good. But funny thing was, the speaker thanks me in the end of the day and everyone turnover to look at me, but i was busy watching movie and i didn't heard it at all. All i heard was, "She probably couldn't hear me right now.." HAHAHA!!!! OMG~~ This set my room IC to laughing beside the console. Teardown was fast though. So conclusion: For tt company can do standby & teardown, but not setup. HAHAHA!!!

Alright~ gonna go back standby now. Update soon yo. :]








Gina :D

what we could have been, 8:36 AM.
Sunday, March 27, 2011

weather: Sunny
mood: Sleepy & Lazy







Went for CJ's chalet yesterday. Seriously, is pretty boring. One of e reason maybe becos we dunnoe many ppl there. Too many bunch of friends ard. Lazy to socialise either. Just say "HI" & den smile smile. HAHAHA!!
Most of e time we r just walking here & there to sit down for some card games or chitchat. Didn't really get to drink till drop tt kind. Though there's beer, but given it up to YP instead. Should have drive down. Chalet was at Aloha Changi Unit 2. Super wooloo can!! And no entertainment in anywhere nearby. Even if wanna see Bapok oso need to go all e way outside. Wanted to watch TV on e 2nd level, but damn lots of mosquito. No choice but to go back room for some aircon. So, we eventually spent 2nd day sleeping all e way till night time den head back home. Though there's still one more night, but too boring to stay. hahaha~ not nice to complain in front of e host, shall spam it here den. XD

Early in e morning kenna waken up by uncle to help him bank in money at Civil Centre. Though tiring, but i dun mind helping him out. HOWEVER!!! I really dislike him calling me at very last min. He can just phone me up & say he's about to reach e place. Then, wait for me till i arrived to help him out. Do u noe how bad will i felt?! Letting an elderly wait for u?? Moreover, i find a need to shower before heading out. BUT NO TIME FOR ME TO DO SO!!! Man~ no choice but just change my clothes, wash my face & drive out just to not let him wait for too long. -,-

Anyway, ate a very hearty & full breakfast. Now i'm super duper tired. 2moro gonna start working as freelance 1st. After these 2 shows, time to get my ass back ETG den. It will be my brand new chapter of an real adult life.

Looking at Alicia's volleyball photos in Aussie. Damn~~ how i miss my volleyball life... Wonder when will be my next time touching them... hahaha! sounds so wrong.
Alright~ tts all for e moment. Shall have more updates coming up den. Tata!!

Trap in between
Though the paths are clear
You can neither takes e left nor the right
Only the middle is the safest
Looking for that someone to stand on either end of the route
But none of them are making the move
Perhaps I will still ended up
Walking on the middle lane...











Gina :]

what we could have been, 1:08 PM.
Thursday, March 17, 2011

weather: Breezy
mood: nervous/ bored






Exam ended on e 4th march 2011. So was kinda like graduated from NP unofficially. Been having fun & rotting since then. Awwwww man~~~ i need money!!!!! hahaha.

Anyway, head down to ETG for interview. Wanting to focus on lighting, yet boss suggest me to start out from e video side. Meanwhile, then ask seniors to teach me lighting audio & so on. Oh wells~ no objection for that.
Raff they all alrdy head out for HK shows. Didn't join them right after my last paper, neither did i ask about it. Thus, gonna give a pass for this HK trip den. Partially, i dun think i'm ready for it yet. So many things to consider. Am i able to handle e stuff when seniors r out? Am i ready to fly ard for shows? arrrggggsssshhhh~~ Probably have some fun 1st & join them in about end of April or May i suppose. Shall see~ Shall see~~ Think so much oso no use.

For this period of time, gonna head back school to finalise AEP MV thingy. Help out yeeting wif the design. Do color correction for DVD wif peilin & Jiesheng. Gosh~~~ how great it would be if i'm pay for tis. MUAHAHA!!!

Seriously, i missed ton of things. These are my top 10: (Sequence not in order)
1. Life as a Student
2. Volleyball Training
3. Classmates
4. Hiphop Training
5. Making Fun of Lecturers
6. Non-limited Access to the Studio
7. Cheap Food
8. Sending Late Night SMSes to the Class
9. Breaking Rules & Finding Troubles
10. Looking for that Someone Special

Muahahaha~ there's alot more to go. But probably i will flood this post. Perhaps my journey as a student gonna wait till 2yrs later. Or even more? Who knows~

Shall update more when time comes. For now, GOODNIGHT PEEPS~~~






Gina :]

what we could have been, 1:38 AM.
Saturday, February 5, 2011

weather: breezy
mood: light weighted





Wow~ my blog is growing spider web!! hahaha. Photos tt i owe CZ are not up yet. ooops~~ muahahaha. Wait alittle while more okie? XD

Is new year!! HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL~~~
Been rather busy wif school works recently. Now just wanna take a break and enjoy my holidays. 2moro den start chionging my assignments ba.

Just attended JY's 21st birthday. Wow~~ everyone is turning 21st both this year and next. My wallet going to burn a BIG hole for sure!! reached there, play black jack and MJ, end of the day still managed to win $11. Not a big sum, but better than nth. hahaha. Head off 1st wif JY's bro since he's driving. Wanting to stay, but didn't inform mum in advance. Better dun risk my CNY days getting scolding, no good no good~~

There's one night where i dreamt this dream, start to wonder whether did i make my right choice in wanting to join them after grad. Did that "thing" really affect me tt much..? I'm like a lost only now. :( But nonetheless, i shall enjoy this last few weeks with my beloved classmates. I hope will be an enjoyable one!! :D
shall grab some sleep. Tata~~

We once make a promise together.
Sometimes i find her very tied down, but i didn't mention it.
Till one day, our promise came to an end.
I'm trying to be a good friend & understand her situation.
Stands in her shoes.
But...
Sometimes, i dun mention is not because i dun think u will understand.
Is just tt i dun wanna make u feel bad, felt burden or even stress up.
Cos, i seek no point to it.
If is broken, there must be way to fix it back.
But wat if is broken twice..?
Will u still bother to fix them back?



Gina :]

what we could have been, 5:05 AM.

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